So tonight I nearly got in a long distance relationship with Cece. This was after a long and stressful talk about her and Katie possibly dating. After 2 hours of a lot of mental stress I came to terms with everything but I don’t feel like writing it down.
A) I like Cece(obviously) but she lives a million miles away. We connect really fucking well and I’ve liked her for a very long time.
B) We can’t be together but neither can I just “remove her from my life”. Like I said she’s a very close friend and it would feel wrong not being able to talk to her. Distance is the biggest cockblock. I’m open to a long distance(AS OF RIGHT NOW) relationship BUT we would have to see each other on a normal day to day basis in the next 2 years.
C) AS OF RIGHT NOW I am willing to wait on her simply because this is the closest thing to love I’ve ever experienced and I’m willing to put work into it. If some girl steals my heart away just as much as Cece did in the next few years FINE but AS OF RIGHT NOW I’m fine with waiting.
D) If she meets someone at her new school fine. It’s going to suck but I just hope he/she treats her well and over a matter of time I’d adjust. I don’t want to be selfish so might as well.
If we would have gotten together tonight I would have given it my all. I was never given the chance but we shall see. Tomorrow is a new day.